Rhinestone Requiem

Sunny Sweeney

It’s another wasted morning
When I’m holding up the world
Too much tequila has me wonder
Why I’m heading home at all

I get this honky tonk feeling
Every day around 3 am
I suppose that’s the reason
I need to move away from me
So, I get up and go again
’Cuz I can’t find it in your heart, babe
If I don’t find it in your heart, babe
I’m gonna find it where I can

I can’t shake that lonely feel
Lord, I know I’ve pushed you away
I know I need your understanding
What you been giving me is wearing out these here boots

I get that honky tonk feeling
Every time you smile at me
I need a chance to try again
I need a safe way from home
So, I’ll try on your tenderness
And hope you understand
If I can’t find it in your heart, babe
I’m gonna find it where I can

So I’ll say it one more time
And I hope you’ll understand
When I can’t find it in your heart, babe
I’m gonna find it where I can

He thought leaving me was gonna be the death of me
Without him I’d somehow lose my sanity
Now I’m 30, kinda know my way getting outta this place I’m in
Where’s the dotted line, show me where to sign
Momma’s on the loose again

I’m stuck between 10 and I’ll never do that again
Between happy ever after and the cold, hard, bitter end
Our fairytale wasn’t right, he told a lie, I’m stuck here
In between a diamond and a divorce decree

I played the part with a broken heart for way too long
I’m over getting over him and what he did wrong
If you’re stuck kinda single, it’s time to mingle
and let your long hair down
It’s all on the judge to do what he does
Can’t wait ‘til he lets me out

I went down to the Greyhound Station
I picked up a long-legged man
Three simple words:
‘Honey, you shouldn’t have so much control over me
This whole place never gave me a second chance

We laid down on the Brazos River
He kept me from the cold
The wind whispered rumors that the devil in my soul
And memories made a story never told

Lord, save my soul,
Get me clear from the cold
I ran back around him
I knew it all along
And I don’t like how the tale’s unraveling
So, I keep traveling, traveling on

I wish some nights that things were different
But I can’t help who I am
I’d say goodbye lest you won’t mind
You can’t even hear me crying
It’s hard for me to leave it all behind

I think now that I’ve threw
Those wolves I held on way too long
All the things that he no longer have control over me
’Cause I wanna get fresh, I wanna get clean

I cut my teeth in Texas learned to walk on western swing
Rode my old Gibson Dove right on up to Tennessee
Picked on music that, said to hell with the machine
But I love the Grand Ole Opry and the songs they let me sing

I got a rambling heart, beaten on to strangers
If a highway’s nice for paradise, now it’s just right by me
You can’t grow roots soaking and rolling through the trees
As long as there’s a honky tonk, I’ll always have a home

I don’t need a flower bed, or a big white picket fence
I once picked that fence, rocks, my family ain’t seen since
I love waking up in a motel room not knowing where I am
And I love being the only woman in a five-piece country band

You left town, I hung around
After all this is where I’m from
And all the blue breeze blowing
And that mid-day August burning sun
I’ve never had to pack a suitcase
But I’ve sure had you talked about
Since you’re leaving, it just makes sense
For me to stay here in this house

You can take that old iron bed we bought
At the Round Top antique show
Hand carved full of maple arrows
That cost a lot of time and so and so
Go and cram pack your Rock and Roll records
You can even take the sheet
There ain’t one thing I’d like to keep
You can take everything else

When we call it quits
I hope on this we can agree:
That Houston, Houston belongs to me

The water tower on Pullmor street
Is the first place I got high
After the homecoming football game way back in 1995
My grandma lives down on Sugar Creek
I can drive there with my eyes closed
No, you can’t take the stars you dressed
But we’ve got the refinery’s glow

I sold my last hard bible
Just to pay my bills
I called my mother
To reserve me in her will
And the pay I'm getting every Thursday night
Well, it just don't seem enough
Money can buy me a hell of a lot
But it sure won't buy me love

Well, I bought me a car
And I bought me a road train
Car won't go, the trains too slow
So I found me a mansion
On the highest hillside
Bigger than this town
But it don't feel like home

I sold my last hard bible Just to pay my bills
I called my mother To reserve me in her will
And the pay I'm getting every Thursday night
Well, it just don't seem enough
Money can buy me a hell of a lot
But, it sure won't buy me love

I spent my cash
On a brand new heartache
I spent my time
Trying to make it back
He took my heart
And he took my savings
He took the train
And left me on the track

I sold my last hard bible
Just to pay my bills
I called my mother
To reserve me in her will
And the pay I'm getting every Thursday night
Well, it just don't seem enough
Money can buy me a hell of a lot
But it sure won't buy me love

Is tonight the night I make you a memory
Is today the day I finally forget
Tonight the night I make you a memory
Is today the day I finally forget
Like one bad memory from back beginning you’d disappear
Like the smoke rings off my cigarette

Should this be my golden hour
Has the sand finally fallen to one side
Ready I wanna break free from this prison of pain
Escape with what’s left of my pride

Well, I wake up in the morning
Where the bad times don’t outweigh the good
Stop breaking all the wrong hearts
Help me surrender
And make you a memory the way that I should

I drink well with others
Somebody better buy me a beer
I’m here to carry on till they carry me out of here
Somebody done me wrong
I want to play old cheating songs
I drink well with others
So keep ’em coming all night long

I went to the liquor store
And bought a glass for two
Poured a fine drink and took a sip
It wasn’t nothing but didn’t taste right
I don’t want to just drink alone
I’d rather still lift with someone
I made a new plastic company
That’s the best pair on me

I drink well with others
Call up my sister and brothers
Tell your sinners come together
And bring your friends if you got ’em
I don’t care if you’re wrong or them
I drink well with others
So keep them coming all night long

Well, it’s too late to go home early, and I love making new friends
So let’s take one out, twirl one off, and drive it on around the bend

Somebody better buy me a beer
I’m here to carry on till they carry me out of here
Somebody done me wrong
I want to play old cheating songs
I drink well with others
So keep them coming all night long

I waited here with a memory to kill
A thirst for forgetting and a half-broken will
Crank up the band and pour me a full one
I’m getting half lit in three-quarter time

I’ll feel much better when I can’t feel at all
Cry me a drink and send in a song
So go and take two bottles of yesterday’s wine
I’m getting half lit in three-quarter time

This honky tonk heaving is doing its thing
Drowning my sorrows in a 90-proof rain
While the jukebox tells me my story in rhyme
I’m getting half lit in three-quarter time